The Final Catch Up

Nothing major, just the little stuff.

Let’s skip the pleasantries. (But don’t worry, I’ve missed you.)

We have a lot to catch up on. Nothing major, just the little stuff. I went almost two weeks without seeing J and I missed her a lot. A dinner and sleepover was not enough to feel caught up. I realize it’s hard to make up for lost time. I don’t want to catch up. I want to stay connected because the little stuff matters. Since I haven’t done a great job at staying connected here;

Let’s catch up! Hopefully, for the last time.

Words I’m trying to not use:

• I think

• Actually

• Just

• Sure (absolutely hate)

I think these words have never actually helped me convey the way I am just feeling. “Sure” is simply the worst response I could ever receive. Is it a yes? A no? Maybe? It leaves a lot to wonder and I am in no place to wonder so I scrubbed it from my vocabulary years ago. You should too.

Goals:

• Keep my chair clutter free a.k.a don’t toss all my clothes on it

• Sit in my clutter free chair when I read and journal

• Walk outside without listening to music, podcast or calling anyone

• End the night with an empty kitchen sink

• Drink water before I get a headache

• Make decisions without asking the opinion of others (ex. nails, outfit)

• Write down the thoughts I have in the moment because I will forget

• Write down the name of every nail color I get bc I will also forget this

• Do laundry before I run out of underwear

Things that ruined my mood:

26, 0, 43

I am…

LOVING: anything slow, time with J, new Zach Bryan album, sleepovers, peppermint oil on my tummy, scalp massages, double denim, less TV, oil cleansing, good company, dinner & drink dates, not making the plans, not explaining myself, sleeping in, turning my phone off, comfort over everything

PROUD OF MYSELF FOR: cleaning my sink and tub drains (this was terrifying and required gloves), scheduling all my doctor appointments and going, eating through my fridge before my greens are wilted, organizing my thoughts before therapy, remembering to trim my wicks, keeping consistent with my nighttime routine, journaling pen to paper, saying what I need and want, perfecting my matcha, shopping less, writing more, being pickier about who/how I spend time

WEARING: nightgowns, clothes from the back of my closet, PJs to drinks

WATCHING: Ugly Betty

LISTENING: The Girls Bathroom podcast, my therapist, Mel Robbins podcast

July 2023 | Someone please help me reset the date on my film camera.

I hope you feel caught up. I want this to be the final time I catch you up. I’m not making any promises but I plan to stay better connected here to avoid having to catch up any time soon.

Sometimes I feel lazy. I recently listened to a podcast about how momentum is more important than motivation. I have a lot of motivation. When I can’t get myself to do things, I feel lazy. I’m learning that I actually need to start in whatever small and attainable way I can because momentum > motivation. It stuck with me and helped me lately. I think writing this will be the momentum I need to keep writing and stay better connected. If you want to hear this concept explained in an eloquent way, listen to the Mel Robbins podcast from September 6th.

This whole newsletter was about me. It felt nice to check-in with myself. You should too. Tell me what you’re loving/wearing/proud of/working on and what is ruining your mood. Tell me whatever you want to share. I want to know.

I missed you! I adore you! Bye!

xx, K

P.S. If you don’t watch Ugly Betty, start.

Bye September

Song of the Week:

I’ve listened to this nonstop all summer.

Favorite Song of the Album:

Favorite of today, anyway.